welp passed my mat test for grad school, so that's cool. i guess. if i manage to do good this semester, i'm looking at two and a half more years left. while i like this degree, it's not really something i am 100% interested in but this was the only school to accept me out of the two different career choices i went with. hopefully, though, i can use my degree in theatre to help in at least some way. a lot of school in my state don't have theatre standards and that is something i want to change. drama is just as important in a student's every day life. some day i want to go back to school and get a theatre teaching degree when circumstances aren't forcing me to reside in this current state. i never thought of being a teacher but at the same time, going through this program has made me realize how lacking we are in reference to knowledge about drama. i want to change that. hopefully, i can some day.
Here we are, senior year. It's been a wild ride for the last three years - I've made and lost friend's, realized that theatre is really something I want to do, while figuring out that there are aspects of it that I am suited for. Hopefully, grad school is next in my life. If not, well, we'll see, I guess.
here we are, senior year. It's been a great three years filled with new friends, tons of memories and journey for myself. I found the courage to go and put myself out there in regards to my theatre major, which was a challenge in itself but it made me feel better knowing I could accomplish something. I still face disappointment and it's hard to not feel bitter. I just have to remind myself that each time I take a step outside of my comfort box, I discover new strengths I didn't know I possessed.
Starting out at a new school is challenging and that's exactly how I've felt for the past three weeks - challenged. And it's another challenge entirely to take these theater classes and have theater as my major. I'm so shy that the thought of all the minor details this degree entails sends me into a state of exhaustion and terror. But, I'm tired of feeling like this, so I decided to set myself upon this goal of trying to overcome this. I hope I don't let myself down along the way.
Welp. I've finally done it. I decided to schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist. I have severe social anxiety and it's been really difficult trying to not let it influence my life. I've lost jobs and nearly failed my first semester of college because it got so bad. But, I'm taking theatre next semester and I don't really want to vomit every time I go onstage so I decided to do something about it. I just feel really good about myself because 1. I made the appointment via phone call which is something I reallyyy dislike because it makes me nauseous and 2. I'm doing something about it. It's a pretty big step, I think.
As some of you are no doubt aware of, Martha Jones is my favorite companion in Doctor Who. She's smart, brave, resourceful, compassionate... the list just goes on. She's also one of the most underappreciated ladies in the DW fandom. For that reason, I present to you...
My guide to all things Martha Jones for tvrealm</lj>
It's really bloody irritating when those people around you feel the need to criticize your choice in major. So the pay isn't that great. Your point? If money was really my main concern then I would have stuck with psychology. Just stop already. I'm not changing my mind just because you think I won't make enough money or because it's not a high demand job. It's something I love. GOD.